The Waiting Room

KP and his dog

Sitting in the waiting room. What a unbearable place to be. Those stiff chairs and stares across the room as you see others who are also uncomfortable waiting for news.  I have had that experience quite often in the last few years. Now I find myself sitting at home for our next step and praying. Also in this time I am hoping, for a reversal of a condition for our dear friend whom I am afraid to let go of. 

Simplest of still water. A place to refresh

                 The other day I woke up uncommonly relaxed with no agenda. My husband mentioned we should call our friend as we had not spoked to him since Superbowl Sunday. My concern kicked in after I called and his voice mail which was uncommonly full still after a week.This has never happened in all the years of our triweekly communication.  My relaxed state was gone. Being that he lived out of state I researched my mail and found a common link to contact and emailed this gentleman to see KP’s status.

We had discovered our friends had hidden the severity of his health condition. He had taken a turn for the worse. My husband and I were shocked. He had dropped us clues in former conversation but never revealed the true diagnose. My solid diving platform which was my stability was knocked out from under me and I felt my soul going deep into old familiar territory. The uncertainty was swirling like a deep sea dive into the dark void of the ocean. This was a man who I turned to for Godly wisdom. He was as close as a brother but wise like a Father. We had the common thread of faith. I mean really strong. He could walk up to a stranger and tell them about Jesus with no embarrassment. I loved that about him!

His Momma's beautiful perfume bottle. 

I had become complacent that he would always be in my life. I believe he had his health concerns handled. My girlfriend had mentioned several times weeks ago she felt the urgency for me to go and see him. I had brushed off her words. I wish I could take that time back. Because I can’t, I deal with the now. Rear view mirrors make me miserable.

When you find yourself in uncomfortable situations you can turn it into action in the natural and prayer in the unseen spiritual world. So we prayed and flew to Phoenix.

His family for this season has become all of the friends who adore him as he never married. He was taken into a home of a high school friend. Talk about kindness! Hospice was notified and the waiting of not hearing has turned into a waiting of not knowing. 

We were usher into his quiet room. We found out that within 24 hrs he could no longer get out of bed on his own. Our window of time was still barely ajar.

KP''s visit with me in Sedona

 I got on his bed held his hand and we spoke to him of great memories over the years.  I played a song my sister had left for him on my voice mail and my dad called and spoke of their great times together and of their future residence in heaven. My husband who is a tender guy kept doing those big gulps and sighs of emotion. For some reason I got up and went and knelt on the opposite side of his bed and realized he had not seen me earlier due to lose of vision on the left side. He was very aware we were their and my husband who has a gift of healing in certain situations prayed for him. We read him Psalm 91 and 103. I wanted to stay and hold his hands for the next several days. As we forced ourselves to say goodbye, I leaned over and Said, “KP, I love you.”  His only words of the day flooded to my hearts he replied. “I love you too Becky!” Oh my! I will cherish those words for a long time. I had asked God for some sign and I got it. 

His former outside porch

Upon our return 3 states away I thanked my husband for praying. For being bold in that obedience of asking God for healing. My husband said that was not the amazing part for him but my strength and being the rock. You know both are needed at times and we fit together like a puzzle. Gods workmanship, not ours.

God controls the time

So we sit in our home waiting. We have learned how to wait. I did not say we liked it.  We are waiting on a defined corner as God forms our future plans. We have given God space and our hourglass to flip. 

Our friend is lying in, “the valley of the shadow of death.” My aunt says. “Its a place where you want to stay with the familiar of those you love. But God is calling you forward.  We give God the space to do his work. Even the breathe of hope that he would return him to us healed. See Update Below

A part of his work of art..

How are you handling the waiting room you are presently sitting in? Are you trusting God who loves you and is there to see you through this time? Are you allowing him the space to care and show his love even in the simplest of things like a window of time left ajar to say I love you…

Do you know your salvation is at hand? Only you can choose? It is through the one who forgives and loves you like no other. My friend would tell you straight up you need Jesus. No More Waiting! The redeeming blood of the cross and the one who died for you to give you eternal life. So I stand in his place and tell you to ask God for forgiveness of your sins and that you want him to live in your heart. Please do not wait!

The Lord Is My Shepherd

A Psalm of David.

1The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters.

3He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness

for his name’s sake.

4Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil,

for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.

5You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies;

you anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

all the days of my life,

and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord

forever.

Update: Our Dear Friend went to be with the Lord Feb. 12th at 4:32 A.M. Surrounded and loved. His Celebration of Life service is March 14, 2015 at the East Chapel of Scottsdale Bible Church, I believe at 3 P.M.

What are you waiting for? Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.